End Of My Days

I just realized that I'm not my usual self this week. I go to class without having learned anything, I spend my time at the tambayan without recalling what I did there, I stare in my computer for hours doing nothing. I even lie on my bed without really getting some decent rest. I'm not in need of a professional help... but I think I really need some now. I don't know in what form, just as long as it would take me away from my nightmare. I know it's too late to change now since the finals is very near already. I have ruined my life in three months time. I have failed my own expectations, and that it what's killing me. I still have a lot of things running in my mind, and I can't help but think as if the world's problems can be solved by my blunt mental capability. I am trying my best to withdraw all these thoughts, but I keep on failing because I feel that I'm near the triumph already... only in my dreams. Someone really has to to take me away from all these.