Nowhere To Go

He was correct. I will never ever correct my ways by adding more to the now mile-long list of problems. I know that it is not right to even think of what I am wanting, but I cannot control myself from trying out new ways of winning over myself. I was lost for so long that I cannot even remember where exactly I had the the last view of my normal world. Though I know nothing will lead me to anything good, I dont think I can be my old self now, even if it is the only option left for me. I am not crippled... but I am trying to be one. I am not blind (though I may soon be, because of my stubborness) but I am acting like one. I can hear the people around me, but I am acting deaf. Sometimes, I wish that I will just be very tired to even think. The hell with my acads... I will be more than willing to exchange anything just for  the peace of mind.